Does my own family get my brightest light, or do I put my best efforts in shining only when I am in public?
In short, yes, and no. ;-) That is, I am almost exclusively within my home and with my children. I don’t know of another place in which I can shine. At church, I guess, or with friends/people I serve. But I think I have an easier time loving my family than I do other people. And I have to remember to be as generous with others as I am with my family. Still, I don’t feel like my family gets my brightest light, not because I am letting it shine elsewhere, but because my light just seems rather dim. I want to be brighter for them. I would love to be able to teach my children and help them learn and progress spiritually, physically, emotionally and socially (the mentally part is easy, and I have to remember not always to focus on that.) As I have prayed, I know that the best way to teach them and help them make progress is by being an example. But I’m not sure I’m a great example of physical, emotional, social or spiritual greatness. I try in all areas. But I’m not great. I have a little flashlight, not a light house. There is always so much progress to be made!
Here is what I do have:
Spiritually: I pray and receive revelation (almost) daily. I love to read the words of the Lord, in scriptures, conference, books, etc. I love to go to the temple and try to go weekly. I have a testimony and enjoy sharing it. I want to know and do the will of the Lord.
Physically: I eat as healthfully as I know how/reasonably can. I enjoy exercise and being healthy/strong. I am grateful for a good body and the things it can do. I keep myself neat and well groomed.
Socially: I enjoy people and have friends. I seek to help those in need. Seek out social opportunities, and frequently invite people to our home.
Emotionally: I’ve had to learn a lot of new emotional habits in order to get over depression. I am doing better emotionally now, and try to point out unhealthy emotional habits when I see them in my children. I do things that I enjoy and things that I don’t enjoy. I believe my needs are valid and worth taking care of.